Josiah is In-Dwelt by Christ
Before leaving Josiah this evening he was privy to my side of a pretty emotional conversaion with Michael over the room phone. Since we haven’t seen each other face to face except for briefly when he came visiting with B, C, and Amanda (my first “night” at the hotel, when I set the alarm and only got an hour of sleep so that I could see most of my family, albeit however briefly (and since all subsequent contacts so far have been phone only that in-person sleep-deprived time has had to be sufficient) we have had many emotional things to share with each other.
My kids aren’t used to seeing me cry (that’s not on my Greatist Hits List as to how I live my life). In fact at our house 9-11-01 is sometimes called “the day that Mommy cried” because I’d only turned on the TV after Michael called, and then just in time to see the second tower fall on live TV not having seen sufficient coverage to even know what was happening then…
Anyway, Josiah is a very tender-hearted person, and has been very compassionat toward others most of his life. This is especially telling in that as a person on the Autism Spectrum, the very nature of that condidtion is abundant self-focus. I’m not sure if he could actually hear my words, but he could catch my tears and the hushed and breathless town of my voice as I shared deeply personal and emotionally charged and historically burdonsome ubiquitous baggage issues that the stress and sleep-deprivation and close quarters of this current marathon have yielded.
Periodically I’d look at Josiah and his face would be screwed up in pain and sometimes he would begin sobbing aloud. And this was only because he was in his own very uniques and guileless way bearing my burden in love.
In the Kingdom of God it is Josiah who is the True Warrior Heart and the rest of us seemingly “normal” people who dwell in the land of Special Needs!
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